This update  is coming form the strange world of chemotheropathy. I am receiving it as I type. It’s 3:45. I started at 10 so I am feeling the goofy head, and I can not speak correctly because of the nueropathy.

It went quickly today and I went home awake and made a grass-fed  Prather Ranch steak with potatoes and white corn on the cob  – hello hobby !  The trip to the Yuba was a rejuvenating success, brought about by the company of two rivers: one providing a steady gurgling song coming down the mountain, the other a river of laughter and love coming off the mountains of some dear, sweet friends.  I wish this was something I could do with all of you at some point. It would make me so happy to be able to share myself with all my friends when I am feeling this well, especially since most of my strength is a direct response to the abundance of  love and care that I have been so humbled to have received from you all.

Today was my second day in a row in the chemotherapy clinic and  here’s why: I went yesterday to visit for the first time a woman named Ginny, whom I was introduced to through a person Kaki does yoga with .  She and I have talked on the phone several times – she has the same cancer I did, but in a different part of her pancreas. As I have explained before, the chemo is brutal and I  only had  four sessions. She is my new hero because she is on her 8th, and the doctors still can’t say for certtain wether or not she will be having surgery. Yet her attitude is positive and strong, which is inspiring   to witness.  My strength was also  enhanced by the knowledge  that the surgery was definitely happening (except for the brief hicup at the end of chemo). It was my intention to go and give her some support but I must say that after basking in her strength and beauty, I walked away having gotten as much support as I intended to share. In fact, more. Thanks so much, Ginny. You can do it.

Got some great news today – I weigh 142 pounds!  Hello, fatty!  Also found out the ” Ma”  is coming out for Thanksgiving.  Hmmmm, I wonder what we are gonna have to be thankful for… Her visit is really exciting because she has not been back here since  I left the hospital.  I owe a great many thanks to  my mom for being so strong through all of this, and for giving me the space I needed  to heal after  being in the hospital . Being a parent, I know this whole thing  has been her worst nightmare, and  she has done what has been best for me regardless of her needs or pain  which is why she is trully a great mother  And, thankfully, my mother,  because it was those seeds of her inner strength planted in me  that have grown into the powerful roots of  my tree.

Thanks to the generosity of other friends, Kaki and  I went to the symphony, which was great becase it felt so normal to just be out at a show .

I  I have also included a photo from the burning man that showed up this week in rolling stone  !